All in 7 days; How could you throw six months away
Just within 7 days; How did I become ex-fiancé,
Had I been wise to know; That this would have been the end of it all
I would have quickly preferred; That you didn't make that first long-awaited call,
I'd rather live the rest of my days; Thinking what could have been
Instead of having to recuperate; From this unnecessary bitter end,
Of all people; I never thought to be done this way by you
Out of all the women I've been with; Why did I think your heart was pure & true,
What was to be a lifetime; Obliterated in 7 days
Telling myself better now than later; To experience your deceitful ways,
But damn this pain hurts like hell; Worse now than even from the start
And there's nothing more excruciating; Than a mortified heart,
We always said no matter what; Our love for each other would never stop
In just 7 days; Was that something that you forgot.
Did you forget the rings; Did you forget our future plans
Did you forget three years ago; We thoughtfully wanted each other as woman & man,
In a short 7 days; Did you forget how it feels
Did you forget our relationship; Our love that was authentically real,
What were you going through; That made you up & quit
In 7 days; What made you forget the Epithet,
What was the last button; What struck the final nerve
That justified you abandoning me; Without even saying a word,
Was it because I wasn't just some other ni**a; Was I too generous or too kind;
Did I care too much, concerned myself too much; Or was it because you were always on my mind,
You were everything to me; My world was dark until you became my light ;
Now no matter how far I see; You will never again be in my sight,
Just 7 days ago; You said you still loved me and still wanted to be my wife;
Then 7 days later; What gave you the audacity to purposely walk out of my life.
In the beginning you said I had a way with words; And told you the sweetest things you had ever heard
Within 7 days what did this new man say; That enraptured my words into something absurd,
What did this man do; That made you no longer want to be with me
What did you see in this man; That has you infatuated and respond so openly,
Was he just there when you needed anyone; To slay the loneliness at night;
Was he the comfort you needed; When things weren't going right,
I don't know this man; Or even how he lucked up
If ya'll ever read this; Still probably won't give two damns or a f*ck,
But its cool I'll be content; Karma hits like a motherf*cker
And we know what goes around; Comes back around to the other,
I'm very much hurt; That goes without saying
But what's killing me softly; Are your promises that keep playing.
And I could be mad; Could be in a burning rage
But I feel more hurt; And even more betrayed,
Why did you say what you said; Just earlier this year
I still remember what you had on; When you talked into my ear,
Are you telling him; The things you've said before
In the course of 7 days; Are you giving this man more,
Am I nothing more now; Than a distant memory
The way I found out; Did you want me as your enemy,
What about our family portraits; Are they even still intact
Or did you place them within scrap; With no intention of looking back,
Are you sharing pictures of you and this man; To the rest of your family
Were you ever going to explain; What happened between you & me,
Cause I can't blame this man; Cause I don't even know
If he knew in 7 days; we would be engaged no more.
And to your child that I see as my son; Though now you would want me to leave alone
He probably knows me now as Will; That man who won't be returning home,
My number one regret; Is that I can't be around to watch him grow
Into a Man of God; With blessings that will obviously show,
Thy name means King; And such shall he live with grace
No matter how many men you go through; He should still be number one in your place,
So do you have him yet; Calling this new man dad
Will he be the one to teach him; Right from wrong & good from bad,
See just because we lived in two different states; Didn't mean jumping ship would be done so easily
Before this passage is through; You'll realize exactly what you've done to me,
Did you really think; That things would go on okay
That I wouldn't care; Because you lived four states away,
Did you not know; Everyday I kept our relationship alive
Because I damn sure didn't know; In 7 days my whole world will have died.
So is it making sense now; Is it finally getting through
Not only did I love you; But my family loved you too,
In just 7 days; Did you forget our wedding date
March Fourth '09; You & I at matrimony's gate,
March Fourth '09; We were to be made as one
March Fourth '09; Couldn't wait for that day to come,
You were all I had in this world; There was nothing I wouldn't do
Already had provisions saved up; Just to cater to you,
And I could care less; If I don't get back one cent
Because you were worth more; Than the money I spent,
I thought you would always be mine; And I forever yours sharing joys
We even had our future children planned; Two more little boys,
I knew for sure; You were the one who would take me higher
In just 7 days; All you've done was prove me a liar.
I could have been bitter; I could have written this feeling mean
I could have called you; Every derogatory name ever dreamed,
Right now I may be down; But my spirit retains its strong will
Though people are asking; Why make such a big deal,
Because I didn't lose just another lover; I lost my future wife
Because this isn't about losing just some girl; This is about losing my life,
I can't & won't do nothing; This is the decision you've made
If you truly made your mind; I'll live with it to the grave,
But was I really just somebody; That you wanted at the time
Was I just to accessorize; Your current frame of mind,
All I want now; Are for these words to touch your heart
For you to understand; How you've burned & ripped my soul apart,
You should know that in 7 days; God marveled at His creation
And in 7 days; I stood witness to your transgression.
Had you told me it wasn't working out; At least you would have still had my respect
But I had to see the pictures; You kissing this man and your tongue on his neck,
There is a saying that goes; "Everything happens for a reason"
Though it makes me sick to my stomach; Realizing you were only meant for a season,
I was just in your living room, in your shower, slept in your bed; Have you already forgotten the sacred love we made
Or being on the phone all the time; You calling me baby & I called you babe,
You cried about me; And for you I even shed tears
You had told me everything; Things that made you happy, made you sad, & even your deepest fears,
What about the promise you made; That you would never leave me again;
That you were ready for me; Lying about that is worse than the darkest sin,
Though now all I can do; Is reminisce the days I had your full attention
And it may take some time; But I shall reach my redemption,
The question isn't how can I hate you; You were my love, were my life, were my friend & my boo
The real question is how can I ever forgive you; Definitely not in 7 days so for now I am through.
September 2007.
Just within 7 days; How did I become ex-fiancé,
Had I been wise to know; That this would have been the end of it all
I would have quickly preferred; That you didn't make that first long-awaited call,
I'd rather live the rest of my days; Thinking what could have been
Instead of having to recuperate; From this unnecessary bitter end,
Of all people; I never thought to be done this way by you
Out of all the women I've been with; Why did I think your heart was pure & true,
What was to be a lifetime; Obliterated in 7 days
Telling myself better now than later; To experience your deceitful ways,
But damn this pain hurts like hell; Worse now than even from the start
And there's nothing more excruciating; Than a mortified heart,
We always said no matter what; Our love for each other would never stop
In just 7 days; Was that something that you forgot.
Did you forget the rings; Did you forget our future plans
Did you forget three years ago; We thoughtfully wanted each other as woman & man,
In a short 7 days; Did you forget how it feels
Did you forget our relationship; Our love that was authentically real,
What were you going through; That made you up & quit
In 7 days; What made you forget the Epithet,
What was the last button; What struck the final nerve
That justified you abandoning me; Without even saying a word,
Was it because I wasn't just some other ni**a; Was I too generous or too kind;
Did I care too much, concerned myself too much; Or was it because you were always on my mind,
You were everything to me; My world was dark until you became my light ;
Now no matter how far I see; You will never again be in my sight,
Just 7 days ago; You said you still loved me and still wanted to be my wife;
Then 7 days later; What gave you the audacity to purposely walk out of my life.
In the beginning you said I had a way with words; And told you the sweetest things you had ever heard
Within 7 days what did this new man say; That enraptured my words into something absurd,
What did this man do; That made you no longer want to be with me
What did you see in this man; That has you infatuated and respond so openly,
Was he just there when you needed anyone; To slay the loneliness at night;
Was he the comfort you needed; When things weren't going right,
I don't know this man; Or even how he lucked up
If ya'll ever read this; Still probably won't give two damns or a f*ck,
But its cool I'll be content; Karma hits like a motherf*cker
And we know what goes around; Comes back around to the other,
I'm very much hurt; That goes without saying
But what's killing me softly; Are your promises that keep playing.
And I could be mad; Could be in a burning rage
But I feel more hurt; And even more betrayed,
Why did you say what you said; Just earlier this year
I still remember what you had on; When you talked into my ear,
Are you telling him; The things you've said before
In the course of 7 days; Are you giving this man more,
Am I nothing more now; Than a distant memory
The way I found out; Did you want me as your enemy,
What about our family portraits; Are they even still intact
Or did you place them within scrap; With no intention of looking back,
Are you sharing pictures of you and this man; To the rest of your family
Were you ever going to explain; What happened between you & me,
Cause I can't blame this man; Cause I don't even know
If he knew in 7 days; we would be engaged no more.
And to your child that I see as my son; Though now you would want me to leave alone
He probably knows me now as Will; That man who won't be returning home,
My number one regret; Is that I can't be around to watch him grow
Into a Man of God; With blessings that will obviously show,
Thy name means King; And such shall he live with grace
No matter how many men you go through; He should still be number one in your place,
So do you have him yet; Calling this new man dad
Will he be the one to teach him; Right from wrong & good from bad,
See just because we lived in two different states; Didn't mean jumping ship would be done so easily
Before this passage is through; You'll realize exactly what you've done to me,
Did you really think; That things would go on okay
That I wouldn't care; Because you lived four states away,
Did you not know; Everyday I kept our relationship alive
Because I damn sure didn't know; In 7 days my whole world will have died.
So is it making sense now; Is it finally getting through
Not only did I love you; But my family loved you too,
In just 7 days; Did you forget our wedding date
March Fourth '09; You & I at matrimony's gate,
March Fourth '09; We were to be made as one
March Fourth '09; Couldn't wait for that day to come,
You were all I had in this world; There was nothing I wouldn't do
Already had provisions saved up; Just to cater to you,
And I could care less; If I don't get back one cent
Because you were worth more; Than the money I spent,
I thought you would always be mine; And I forever yours sharing joys
We even had our future children planned; Two more little boys,
I knew for sure; You were the one who would take me higher
In just 7 days; All you've done was prove me a liar.
I could have been bitter; I could have written this feeling mean
I could have called you; Every derogatory name ever dreamed,
Right now I may be down; But my spirit retains its strong will
Though people are asking; Why make such a big deal,
Because I didn't lose just another lover; I lost my future wife
Because this isn't about losing just some girl; This is about losing my life,
I can't & won't do nothing; This is the decision you've made
If you truly made your mind; I'll live with it to the grave,
But was I really just somebody; That you wanted at the time
Was I just to accessorize; Your current frame of mind,
All I want now; Are for these words to touch your heart
For you to understand; How you've burned & ripped my soul apart,
You should know that in 7 days; God marveled at His creation
And in 7 days; I stood witness to your transgression.
Had you told me it wasn't working out; At least you would have still had my respect
But I had to see the pictures; You kissing this man and your tongue on his neck,
There is a saying that goes; "Everything happens for a reason"
Though it makes me sick to my stomach; Realizing you were only meant for a season,
I was just in your living room, in your shower, slept in your bed; Have you already forgotten the sacred love we made
Or being on the phone all the time; You calling me baby & I called you babe,
You cried about me; And for you I even shed tears
You had told me everything; Things that made you happy, made you sad, & even your deepest fears,
What about the promise you made; That you would never leave me again;
That you were ready for me; Lying about that is worse than the darkest sin,
Though now all I can do; Is reminisce the days I had your full attention
And it may take some time; But I shall reach my redemption,
The question isn't how can I hate you; You were my love, were my life, were my friend & my boo
The real question is how can I ever forgive you; Definitely not in 7 days so for now I am through.
September 2007.
-Will Carter, Jr.