You were the Missed One that I so longed for,
so much that fate decided to open back our door,
four times in & out but on the fifth I truly believed was right,
that is why I'm on my knees begging God for no more hidden lights,
being with you is the most important thing in my life,
you don't know how complete I was when you accepted being my wife,
I felt that I could not want more if I had you,
that I could go through anything as long as your love was true,
and even though I still honestly feel the same way,
I guess I wasn't prepared for how things would actually play;
In the beginning we couldn't have had a more perfect start,
two love-bound people finally connecting at the heart,
it took us three painful long years just to get that far,
and my soul can't take another three to get things back on par,
that March we were the happiest that we had ever been,
we were so anxious for the rest of our lives together to begin,
we would tell each other anything and stayed eager to come home;
To laugh, talk, cry, or just chill all night on the phone,
you told me things that you would never share with anyone else,
but lately it seems like I'm the last to know when you need help;
The first night we made love really opened my eyes,
I knew that love like this came from a woman's truth and not from a woman's lies,
since then I've had this compelling feeling to do anything for you,
not from obligation but from love, responsibility, & because I choose to do for you and our son too,
even though you explained passionately that you could & prefer to survive on your own,
there was a feeling of not needing me that myself had shown,
I know now that there will be plenty of time for us to handle business jointly,
it's the time that is going to take us to get there that is killing me softly;
We once discussed why people in love would cheat,
and now I believe that people cheat when their partner neglects a vow they promised to hold & keep,
you say that coping with problems is reasoning for being so outgoing,
and once again my feeling of not needing me is growing,
the nights we had aside to spend with each other was once OUR way of dealing with things,
and now I need you more than ever than anyone or anything,
the situations that we are going through will one day come to past,
but I really don't know how long I will allow my heart aches to last,
my faith in our relationship is so very strong,
that it is hard to tell if I'm being done wrong;
I know you love me so much that I regard it as being honestly true,
I just miss doing the little things that we used to do,
I miss talking to you so late into the night,
I miss falling asleep with each other because it felt so right,
I miss being your pillar of support when things go astray,
I miss being the one that makes you feel like everything is okay,
I honestly miss how things between us used to be,
I can't stand it no longer being spiritually disconnected from my family,
I'm reminded of you in everything I see and do,
I still wear my ring proudly in honor of you;
Since now I remain silent because of my fears,
my words will have to shed my tears,
but even though we are going through this moment and salvation seems close to never,
I am still very much in love with you & thank God that we are still together.
July 2007.
so much that fate decided to open back our door,
four times in & out but on the fifth I truly believed was right,
that is why I'm on my knees begging God for no more hidden lights,
being with you is the most important thing in my life,
you don't know how complete I was when you accepted being my wife,
I felt that I could not want more if I had you,
that I could go through anything as long as your love was true,
and even though I still honestly feel the same way,
I guess I wasn't prepared for how things would actually play;
In the beginning we couldn't have had a more perfect start,
two love-bound people finally connecting at the heart,
it took us three painful long years just to get that far,
and my soul can't take another three to get things back on par,
that March we were the happiest that we had ever been,
we were so anxious for the rest of our lives together to begin,
we would tell each other anything and stayed eager to come home;
To laugh, talk, cry, or just chill all night on the phone,
you told me things that you would never share with anyone else,
but lately it seems like I'm the last to know when you need help;
The first night we made love really opened my eyes,
I knew that love like this came from a woman's truth and not from a woman's lies,
since then I've had this compelling feeling to do anything for you,
not from obligation but from love, responsibility, & because I choose to do for you and our son too,
even though you explained passionately that you could & prefer to survive on your own,
there was a feeling of not needing me that myself had shown,
I know now that there will be plenty of time for us to handle business jointly,
it's the time that is going to take us to get there that is killing me softly;
We once discussed why people in love would cheat,
and now I believe that people cheat when their partner neglects a vow they promised to hold & keep,
you say that coping with problems is reasoning for being so outgoing,
and once again my feeling of not needing me is growing,
the nights we had aside to spend with each other was once OUR way of dealing with things,
and now I need you more than ever than anyone or anything,
the situations that we are going through will one day come to past,
but I really don't know how long I will allow my heart aches to last,
my faith in our relationship is so very strong,
that it is hard to tell if I'm being done wrong;
I know you love me so much that I regard it as being honestly true,
I just miss doing the little things that we used to do,
I miss talking to you so late into the night,
I miss falling asleep with each other because it felt so right,
I miss being your pillar of support when things go astray,
I miss being the one that makes you feel like everything is okay,
I honestly miss how things between us used to be,
I can't stand it no longer being spiritually disconnected from my family,
I'm reminded of you in everything I see and do,
I still wear my ring proudly in honor of you;
Since now I remain silent because of my fears,
my words will have to shed my tears,
but even though we are going through this moment and salvation seems close to never,
I am still very much in love with you & thank God that we are still together.
July 2007.
- Will Carter, Jr.